Its over before it really began.

I noticed some spoting on Wednesday, I noticed some cramping on Thursday. By Friday morning I knew something was up. I tryed calling my OBG-closed. I tryed calling my Family docter-also closed. Earl was home, I told him to call Ave, we're going to Emergency.

To make a long story short the results of this trip to the Sturgeon are horrible. It turns out the baby has not developed since week 8 and my body is just now realizing it.

So that's it, now I wait with pads on hand.

I'm of course devastated. I thought this could never happen to me. My 1st pregnancy was after all problem free. OMG! I can't believe this, I can't believe this, I can't believe this!!!! WHY!!!!!

So I guess this blog ends here.

Good bye number 2.

Please refer back to my 1st blog for future postings.

BBB Yaahoo morning!

Yaahooo!!!!! I actually got some sleep last night! Evan went down to bed at 9pm and didn't come into our room till 7:30! I was so proud of him. He got a special Thomus the Train puffy sticker that I've been saving for very proud moments. I'm hoping this will be a good incentive for him to keep up the good work. A rested Mom is a happy mom after all. My fatigue was starting to hit narcoleptic proportions!

Stickers seem to be the ticket for my boy. He loves them! They're cheep! I love them too. But I think I have to get him a sticker book or something because I keep finding them all over the house. On the tv stand, some of his toys, on the bottom of my socks! I find my feet sticking to the floor sometimes! lol Yup a book is definitely in order! Dollar store here I come!

Well that's pretty much my news. My 1st doc appointment was moved to this coming Monday. (don't ask, lets just say I was once again ready to punch the receptionist in the nose, but she's been fired, so yippy no more screw ups) Anyway so Monday at
3:45 it is.

I also had a doc appointment with our family doctors for 2 reasons. I've been going in every three months about Evan's talking or lack there of. I also wanted to let Dr Anderson know about #2. He was happy that there would soon be another baby in his practice, and gave me a congratulating pat on the back. I said was I was getting rather concerned about the talking issues. I explained about how Evan doesn't get "L" he moves his tong from side to side instead of up and down. This has me concerned, take notice when you talk, your tong is constantly moving up and down! That motion seems like a very important skill for regular talking. Dr Anderson understood my concerns, said he still wasn't overly concerned with the issue, but asked if I wanted to be refereed to a pediatrician who in turn will refer me to a speech therapist. I said heck yes, lets get this ball rolling! I don't want to be dealing with first time speech appointments and a new born at the same time. Maybe if we start earlier we can nip this in the butt before it gets worse. Yes I feel guilty, no I don't really think its all my fault. Being a parent is weird!

Well that's all for me today ladies.

Have a good weekend!

Doc apt...BBB (big boy bed)

Well in one hour is my 1st doc appointment with Dr Coe. Here's hoping he gets the ball rolling. I've felt rather powerless for the last 11 weeks with no real medical proof that baby #2 is on the way. When I hear the heart beat, start getting blood work, ultrasound appointments etc, then all this will be real. Then I'll start stressing about getting the house ready. lol. I guess there's always something.

On the BBB front last night went rather well. I read that we have to just dooke it out, have a battle of wills. I usually win those so I was confident going in:

Here's the steps, relativly simple:

1. Tell them it's bed time in an upbeat loving voice and escort them to their bed.

Evan's reaction: brack down-temper tantrum-threw up (only a little)
My reaction: cleaned up throw up (not the first time-wow Evan throws up a lot- I'm rather used to it now), changed Evan contued to step 2.

2. Tell them its bed time in a calm but firm voice and escort them back to bed.

Evan's reaction: brack down-temper tantrum-no throw up this time.
My reaction: went and sat at the end of my bed peeking into the room. He could see me too.

3. Every time they leave the bed say nothing and escort them back.

Evan's reaction: after 5 escorts-total battle time 1 hour: down to whimpering, sat at the end until he passed out and fell backward.

My reaction: A happy dance that involved some moves stolen from John Travolta. I entered room moved Evan to the middle of the bed safely between the bed rails.

Result: He slept most of the night. At 12:30 we had a Sam related incident but Evan returned to sleep when the cat was removed from his head. He again woke at 6:30 and by then my will was gone, he slept with us until 8:30.

Well there you go ladys. It works. I hope you file the 3 step BBB or BGB program until you need it.

Have a good one!

Big boy bed OMG what an under taking!

Well its now the morning of the 3rd night since Evan has been moved to a big boy bed. At first he was getting so upset about bed time he would instantly throw up every where. So I've made us a doc appointment to make sure its not acid reflux. Apparently its quite common in toddlers when they get really upset. If he doesn't have it then he's doing it for attention, which means I can feel less sorry for him and more firm with him.

Each night is getting progressively better. The first night I spent more time in his bed then my own, the second night he slept for about 4 whole hours before the crying started. Then last nights awakes may have been more of a result of Sam coming into the room and snuggling Evan out of a sound sleep. He'll just have to get used to Sam, or used to sleeping with his door closed.

We've now nick named 4 of Evan's stuffies "The bed time 4" Spider Man, Tiger, Elephant and blue puppy make up the group. God forbid the bed time four isn't in bed when Evan is. When he was in his crib we would go through them and show Evan they where there, puppy would lick his face, elephant would make his semi elephant noise etc. Since we've been waiting for Evan to fall a sleep in our arms down stairs then carry him upstairs the bed time 4 have gone to the back burner. I figure we'll get him sleeping through the night in his new bed, then we'll work on the bed time routine again. Call me crazy but cleaning up throw up every night isn't fun, so screw it! I'm doing the no cry method, I don't have the energy for anything else.

I'm all dried up on the energy! The sleepless nights are only adding to my hormonal grumpiness. Well here's hoping Evan sleeps through the night, I may try and close the door to keep Sammy out. Evan can open it if he needs me. I'll let you know how it goes!

Luv ya ladies.

We're Back

Well we're back early. My uncle had a friend emergency to attend to so we headed home right after the gift opening on Sunday. We arrived home very late Sunday night, or if you like very early Monday morning. Here's the highlights and some things I noticed:

1. The wedding was beautiful. Since we where there a day early we helped out at the hall getting everything set up. I of course was put on decorating duty. It was fun to be able to visit with my Aunt and Uncle, cousin Warren and Kendra the bride of course. If we had arrived later I fear we wouldn't have gotten any visiting at all. You know how weddings are, the bride and family are soooo busy. I'm glad we went early. Evan spent most of his time running, after the flower girl Katlyn (age 2 as well) she was super cute. He also ran with my second cousins 2 year old Collin. They where so cute, they hugged a lot. He didn't nap at all while we where there of course. More on Evan and sleeping later.

2. My family is getting old! I have to come to grips with the fact that I'm aging and so there for so are my uncles, aunts, second cousins etc. It scares me to think they may not be around much longer.

3. It was very emotional! I know my preggy hormones have a lot to do with that. But I found it both wonderful and kinda hard to be there. I know my uncle Denny and his family are close to auntie Yvonne and her family. I honestly felt like the black sheep a little at times, but weirdly a welcome black sheep. It was a little hard to look at my auntie, she's a picture of my mom. Being with them all brings back memories. It wasn't till we went to leave that my auntie really showed how she felt about my being there. She hugged me for what seemed forever, said she we so happy I came, she said she wanted to make this hug last, she misted up and of course so did I wondered what it would have been like if my mom was still around. Would my family have been closer? Would we have seen them more often? Probably. There where so many ppl there that knew me, but I of course didn't know them. They talked about my mom, said she was a wonderful lady. I meet a lady that lived next door to her, she gave my mom a "hair cut" my Grama Lawson was furious. It was both hard and nice to hear those things.

4. Yellow head highway from here to Daughen should be re named "Road Kill Highway" OMG every few kms there's something dead on the road. It was gross! Hey I know we're in an election and all but come on get some one out there with a shovel pls!

5. One sort of bad development regarding Evan. He refused to sleep in his play pen. He would get so worked up he would throw up! So we had to lay him on one of the beds and sleep with him. When we got home he again refused to sleep in his crib. Okay, so we had no choice we where exhausted so he slept in our bed. So yesterday we got him a twin big boy bed. Took him to Walmart to pick his bedding, set it up, put the side rails on etc. He passed out and slept in it for 5 hours last night, then woke up with a rather bad fever. So again he ended up in our bed. So I'm not sure if he's just not feeling well, he doesn't like his new bed, or he's just feeling insecure. We left his crib in the room as well so we/he has a choice. We're planning on pushing the subject big time tonight. No more sleeping with mom and dad! We'll stay up all night if we have to! The answer is a resounding NO!

Well that's about it. The trip was good but I'm feeling more tired after this trip then when we went to see my sister! Must be peanuts fault.

Well that's it for me today. Hope everyone had a great Turkey day! Don't forget to vote!

Before I go

Well we're off to Dauphin for a few days for my cousins wedding. I feel like it came up sooo fast, but I guess that's understandable considering the amount of stuff we've been doing.

A quick update of what going on peanut wise:

I've been having some nausea, mostly at night, I think it has more to do with the prenatal vitamin then peanut.

OMG they weren't kidding about showing the second time. My top roll has begun to stick out past my bottom roll. This sucks a little. The good thing about it is I didn't have to buy a new outfit for the wedding. My size 14 pants and blouse from the high school reunion fit again. (I really liked this outfit!) The shirt fits in a way that shows, yes she's preggers, no not just fatter. lol.

The only other thing to report is tired, tired, tired. Looking forward to getting out on the road and seeing all my mom's family. The last time I saw them was at my own wedding. I didn't get to see them at all it seems. I'm looking forward to being able to sit and talk to them. Hopefully Evan decides to stay put for at least 5 minutes at a time, or hopefully Earl decides to step more often so I can visit.

Well that's it for me. Check out facebook, I posted some great pics Crystal sent of her kids. There's a couple of Mannix that look great.

See you when I get back.

Leanne we'll have to do lunch girl. Hang in there!